Living with Emotional dysregulation disorder can be super stressful at times, lately I’ve found it incredibly hard to deal with my emotions. Understanding how I feel sometimes makes the situation much worse, I could be sitting at home on my phone and some issue arises between friends and when those events occur my emotions can change dramatically.
Emotional Dysregulation disorder is diagnosed to people who find a situation to be worse than it is. I find whenever a situation occurs I can either feel super suicidal, super low, anxious or angry. Someone who hasn’t been diagnosed with emotional dysregulation disorder might not find it as stressful or saddening as someone who has been diagnosed with emotional dysregulation.
You could basically compare emotional dysregulation disorder to bipolar disorder, but it’s not the same. I understand that the symptoms of emotional dysregulation disorder can be like bipolar disorder.
I am not a doctor or someone who is trained in Mental health, I am only talking on experience.
I was recently diagnosed with Emotional Dysregulation disorder and I’m currently in the process of getting treatment, I’ve been feeling super low since December of last year, so it’s been taking awhile to get the right treatment, so while I’ve been waiting for treatment to begin I’ve been looking at coping mechanisms to help me overcome my relapses.
I was prescribed with Promazine and Ariprizole. The medication I take makes me extremely tired, but It does help me with keeping my anxiety and suicidal thoughts at bay.
Not many people are aware of what emotional dysregulation disorder is and that’s ok, but more people have it then you think.
I want to talk more about my emotions, I want to give some examples of situations that may make me frustrated, angry or suicidal. I sometimes have some problems with money, I am currently in the process of getting assessed by Universal credit to see if I am fit or unfit for work. Now, when I check my bank account and I see my bank is looking very dry that makes me feel incredibly sad and that makes me feel upset, I feel sorry for myself and it takes me a while to get out of these feelings. I’ve found it super easy to recover from emotions by listening to K-POP, maybe you should find your favorite music, it might help your emotions.
Emotional Dysregulation disorder to me feels as if my emotions are stuck on a chart and won’t come down unless I use my coping mechanisms to help.
Now I am not sure if my medication will be changed to help eradicate my disorder, I know that I need to have treatment to help to regulate my mental state.
Sometimes these coping mechanisms don’t help, hence why I am looking for treatment or I rely on medication to help control my emotions and my suicidal thoughts. I find it helps eating whenever I am feeling super stressed, upset or angry, I’ve always been someone who eats to help suppress my emotions or to help make me feel good about myself, but eating food will then open a new can of worms, because I’ll look in the mirror and see that I’ve gained a lot of weight, that’d also make me feel worthless.
Paranoia is another thing I’d like to touch on, I’m not quite sure If paranoia links with emotional dysregulation disorder. However, I’ve found that I’d get paranoid about people disliking me for no reason, this might even be friends or family. No matter how many times someone tells me they don’t dislike me I still have a feeling that they’re lying, and they put up with me anyway. Paranoia unhealthy controls my life sometimes, it makes me worry constantly about different situations. In the past, I’ve been paranoid about work colleagues slyly talking about me behind my back, in that situation it made me drink excessively. It run my life for a good few months after I got rid of that negativity and quit that job. I’m not sure how I could’ve avoided these feelings, but maybe when I start treatment I can investigate paranoia and how I can solve it.
I found getting rid of negativity in my life has helped with my emotions. Getting rid of negativity will help your emotions dramatically. Maybe it’s a friend or a situation that isn’t helping with your emotions? Try and get rid of them, your mental health matters remember!